For two weeks my blue lighter has rattled around partnerless in my handbag. For a long time, low energy levels and a general feeling of fogginess, had me thinking of quitting smoking. I also begrudged the time and mental space which smoking occupied in my life. The time was nearing to say goodbye to my old friend.
On return from our December Cape Town trip, I decided to drop to one a day, with a view to stopping completely. This worked for about two weeks then some days I had 2, then 3, then 4. I realized that half measures do not work for me. When the figure crept to 4, I decided to quit for lent. I haven’t done a Lenten sacrifice for years. Obviously come Easter I don’t plan to light up again, I simply can’t.
This is where I am at after 2 weeks smoke free.
- For about 2 months I had a daily, very irritating twitch in my eyelid and sometimes my lip. No information which I found linked smoking as a possible cause, but by day 2 of not smoking the twitch vanished.
- Possibly because I was ready and had cut down, the cravings have not been as bad as anticipated. Maybe choosing lent allowed for some divine intervention.
- I love not feeling controlled by when I will have my next smoke. I only ever smoked outside which meant stopping what I was doing to go for a smoke break.
- The dreams have started. I had these before, during an unsuccessful attempt to quit. I dream that I have smoked and feel so disappointed with myself. It’s a relief to wake and find that I’m still on track.
- I still think of myself as a smoker. I liked being a smoker. Cliff always hated the habit but I didn’t stop for him or for my children. I quit because I was ready. Selfish but I believe this is the only way that I will succeed.
All is not lost. The revised plan is to take it up again when I turn 80. Now I have one aspect of my twilight years to look forward to. Heck I may as well take up drugs then too, not much to lose is there? It’s always nice to have a light at the end of the tunnel.
My quit date is 18th Feb 2015. Roll on the 1 month milestone.
Thanks to Dianne from ‘Chad Life Us’ her posts after quitting have been an inspiration. Below are links to a few but she has written many more.